Larissa has long gone to this thought. In a dream, awake, falling asleep and waking up. She went through lovers four times a year and she wanted to part with each new one, not yet meeting ... What was wrong? Who is she waiting for and looking for? Who does she really need? She was one of those called a strong woman. Of course, try to be weak here, when no one except you solves a single problem, when everything is on her shoulders - the house, the sons, their wives, granddaughter ... everyone wants to hang everything on her ... Mom will decide, mom will find a way ... And why, why, and you yourself are not capable of anything? Larissa has already understood what she needs — only she could not decide at all. she needs a man who will decide everything himself - first of all for her. What should she do and what should not, how should she think and how should she live. For which she will become a property, a thing, a toy ... if she is lucky, then her favorite toy ... She just got tired of being strong ... And when it happened in her head, she understood where to look. There it is called the topic ... Well, the topic, so the topic ... A couple of times in her life there were such offers, once even in all seriousness she was offered a move to Moscow, a cell and a chain ... But to such radical changes in life Larisa was not ready. But at the same time there was a choice ... The first meeting ... He opened the car door and Larissa sat down ... "It is strange ..." a thought flashed through my head, "why am I so calm?" Flashed and disappeared. After the first meeting in my head, thoughts were rushing about — where do you go, why, what do you want to get? But what she wants, Larisa knew for a long time ...

One thought about flogging her always excited her, though she wasn’t really flogged, so self-indulgence is one ... Sex, no matter how tough it is, isn’t subject to any discussion ... Humiliation? And what is humiliation? Well, of course, if you are forced to lick the toilet with your tongue - this is humiliation ... But can the man who was sitting next to me in the car do this? Probably, maybe, maybe not ... You won't try it, you won't know ... Well, and so on ... everything can be experienced if you treat it correctly ... The petition that she made seemed to be thorough, trying to follow the rules that I really didn’t know, it turned out to be muddled and clumsy ... But there was no time for literature ... She wanted it, wanted it ... And when she wants something, it’s hard to turn off the road ... Day of the first session .. morning ... two feelings are fighting in the soul - fear and desire ... Fear never stopped it, desire wins. Doubts? NOT! Reaching the end is the main goal, to know, to feel. She was going in high spirits. Today! This plant is incredible! Collar and bracelets ... when the Boss buttoned them up, Larisa thought that it was happiness ... Why? I just wanted to ... but I also wanted to see myself in a full-length mirror. For some reason, she turned it on. What is in them, in these subjects? What is the point? The questions remained questions ... Everything excited her — what she doesn’t see and doesn’t know what will happen next, the pain from the whip was tolerable, the hand hurt more, but this was what she wanted ... That's just the phrase: “I don’t like scenarios, but this one was painfully good ... ”, - made her wince - roses ... three white roses ... At that moment she wanted to cry - she was HEARD, maybe for the first time in her life, they did not listen, but heard. But then at some point she suddenly became bored. Again, the little devil sang in his head: "That's it?" She asked for it, got it to the fullest, and what you wanted, she asked herself - get it! Tears dry, the pain will go away, a sense of gratitude will remain. Oh, you missed me, girl, as a child.

Yes, and not flogged at all ... The most pleasant thing was later, when the Boss allowed him to wash. How many emotions stirred in her head. That's how she washed her sons in childhood, gently, gently ... her boys. And now I would do it, even though both are already taller than they are, they do not allow, and rightly ... themselves, all themselves.And the Boss allowed! At home, Larisa sat on her sofa for a long time and listened to her favorite music. There are no thoughts in my head, there is peace in my soul, a certain feeling of emptiness, pleasant and relaxing. Larisa moved on the sofa, her dog - an unreasonable puppy, sleeping near the sofa, lifted her head and devotedly glanced with sleepy, puppy, naive eyes: “What, Mistress?”, Don't worry, go to sleep, silly ... And then Larisa understood everything I wanted to understand. Here he is the answer - asleep, stretching his paws near your legs. It is you who decide everything for him - when to feed, when to walk, when to stroke, and when to give in the face, so as not to be impudent, and when to leave with a broom and a rag, as it should be before a scream, so that you know what is possible and what is not. And who will say that he, the unreasonable, lives badly? Though the mistress decides for him, when he rummages through the snow, and which way to go on a leash? And he looks at you faithfully and tenderly tries to lick the shoulder when he is allowed to perch on the sofa. So what were you looking for? Humiliation? No ... there is a controversial issue. Subordination? Yes ... here it is a sweet feeling - submission, complete and unconditional. Try your Gray not to return to the call in three seconds on the street, what will you do? So with you. And this is an incredibly pleasant feeling - to know that an order is a decision FOR YOU. And you do not need to do anything, just obey. Larisa moved to the bed, it was almost morning. She curled up as usual under a blanket and fell asleep, calmly, without dreams and thoughts, it was easy for her.