clean, life-giving air filled with the scent of pine branches, I calmed down a bit and began to think again about Lena, about our relationship and the fact that she is the first girl who opened her inner world to me, trustingly dedicated me to innermost spiritual experiences and secrets ...

I just could not rudely break with her all those bonds that arose in the intimacy and mutual sympathy!

The prostate ached slightly, apparently after a forced discharge, causing a desire to lie quietly in bed ... Which I did, trying to pass the time ...

Finally, at 11:40, I could no longer withstand the suspense and rushed to Corps 5 in the hope of intercepting Lenka, who had been freed from work.

However, I didn’t meet my sweetheart among those who went out after 12 or even 15 minutes! Charging on my short-sightedness, I rushed into the hostel.

At the knock on the door, the sleepy girl came out again, and recognizing me, she left for a second to give me a sealed envelope, in which, in a neat girl's handwriting, it was displayed in large letters:

"FOR SASHI, No. 730" ...

Premonition did not deceive me! Something important happened for both of us ...

“Where is Lena herself?” I asked impatiently, accepting the letter.

- "And she packed up and left early in the morning at 8 o'clock ...

She said that her father found her another place to practice in Kokchetav, in one of the clinics ...

And so, I asked to send a letter ... “- explained the neighbor in the hostel.

I stood, as if stunned by what had happened.

When I woke up in front of a slammed door, I turned and hurried to the exit from the dark corridor, so that, sitting quietly on our stool, read this message from Lena.

Inside the envelope were neatly folded sheets for printer printing, written in small girlish handwriting.

I sighed deeply, and began to read:

- “Sasha! Dear Sasha! I would even like to write - MY dear, Sania!

I know I'll be on the road when you are this morning.

they will fix it in the “stool” and stimulate your prostate for juice and subsequent analysis.

Of course, this once again proves that you are not free to dispose of your body, and not only its external parts, but as you will see - and even your insides!

Unfortunately, we knew so little time!, But when I saw you on the platform, I immediately realized that I was dealing with a guy leading a healthy lifestyle and not abusing alcohol and other bad habits, as they say!

I will not deny that I immediately liked you with my figure, face, hair, mind, education and manners.

By the way, my parents immediately liked you too! What should be said is not so frequent.

During the time we were on the road, you treated me so tenderly and gently that my girlish heart melted, beat up in sympathy for you and I could no longer be indifferent to those signs of attention that you provided me!

I really liked your tanned body, beautiful muscle relief, talking about your sporting interest, gentle hair fluff on your legs, and well-tailored physique!

I subconsciously saw in you a man, albeit a young one, but capable of being my reliable knight and protector! Mentally, I already gave you my heart - yes, it was simply impossible to avoid!

So you are charming and seemed to me just irresistible!

Having learned a little more about your youth, school and current work - I could not help but be frank with you, and I realized that it was not fair to behave towards you as a person - well, just treachery!

And you - I saw it - gradually became closer and closer to me both in the spiritual and in the physical plane!

And now, having got into the medical practice in a sanatorium, where you had to rest for a month, I was happy to find that by the very fate we were given the opportunity to spend time together, and even alone in your luxury hotel room ...

I do not want to hide - our bodies stretched towards each other in the same mutual attraction as our souls !!! Your tender fleeting embraces literally drove me crazy about wanting intimacy with you! I have never experienced this before!

And do not happen further, I probably would soon surrender to you as a woman ...

Unfortunately, my daddy was completely unaware that he was sending me to a precinct that could influence me psychologically.

In the very first hours of my practice, I needed to start overcoming the purely natural girlish bashfulness that occurs when

naked young and healthy guys donor, with excited sexual organs, which were subjected to my inexperienced eyes literally medieval sadistic torture!

For some time I just couldn’t force myself to look at how the experimenter unceremoniously paw the helplessly hanging testicles, their defenseless tense members standing, as in the head holes, into the urethra, electrodes and sperm receptors were inserted for forced stimulation ...

It so dumbfounded me that in the first minutes I turned away when a new donor appeared and tried to pay attention to “torture” as little as possible.

However, the head of my practice gradually taught me to assume that direct participation and assistance in conducting experiments - I just can not avoid!

Moreover, I will have to display in my report all the data, and describe the behavior of each of the 15 volunteers during the experiments on them ...

On the first day I was attracted to the packaging and preservation of sperm still hot from human heat - in spec. containers to be sent to artificial insemination centers ...

In general, this practice, although it had a purely medical purpose, became a serious moral test for my entire nervous system.

My only distraction and joy was YOU, able to dispel me from unpleasant thoughts, to caress and comfort me.

And in the future, I decided not to ask my father quickly, before it was too late, to change my strange practice - and ONLY BECAUSE that would lead to our separation! And I absolutely did not want this.

I mentally overcame myself, and in the evening I conscientiously and diligently learned the lessons that Maria Ilinichna presented to me!

However, while not able to force myself to touch the bare male parts of the body ...

And I considered it an unforgivable mistake if I couldn’t share with you all that I saw and that made such a strong impression on me! Even if this information was a medical secret! I already knew for sure that you are a decent guy and you will not talk about it wherever you get!

Mentally for me you became like a part of me!

And having told about all THIS - I expected from you both moral support, and calm, and your advice, and perhaps practical help in the arising difficulties ...

When I saw your excitement at my story, I naively suggested that it excited you, as well as me, in the first minutes of the realization of the harsh reality of life ...

Then I just could not help but share new impressions for yesterday evening’s series of studies, and by itself it turned out that I realized that you are my only and faithful friend, capable of responding and tender feelings, that it is YOU who can fully understand me, understand my emotions and secret desires of my young body!

After all, I am a girl, and I have every right to feel or not feel attracted to a guy!

At the same time, I knew that, passing the usual boundaries of etiquette, I trust my innocence and honor to the ONLY friend in the world, and not only to a friend, but to a like-minded person and a possible partner!

Of course, I have already noted that I am still an innocent girl, a girl - who has not yet entrusted her innocence to anyone - ... Read more →