It was insane. Unbearable and irresistible.

I tried to fight with myself and gave up ...

Her smell, her tenderness, her voice

All two months have passed in a sweet agonizing hell. I ran into the woods and my legs took me to her house.

For hours he stood in the shade of the trees by her window, eagerly peering into the moving shadows, catching the echoes of her smell, mixed with the smells of damp earth, forest, and the warm smell of their home.

I had never experienced anything like this before and it was impossible to let go; it was impossible to stop breathing.

I remember how I found myself for the first time inside.

Going to bed, she opened the window for the night, a gust of wind threw her warm aroma at me, throbbed in her temples, took a step forward ... jump, window, and now I was in her room

A wild uninvited beast, standing by the wall, immobilized by its closeness

I drink its smells, I admire, I try to examine every detail, so a thin hand is lying on the blanket and the blue vein on my neck pulses ... I swallow. I pull myself together.

Here are fragile clavicles, tender lips opened ... she dreams about something, she smiles ..

Heart melts

Damn it, it's crazy, I have to touch it

Her smell is everywhere, her mind is clouded

Take a step to the bed ... and throw myself out of the window.

After three seconds, I sit on the ground a hundred meters from her house, my hands tremble

- Damn, Edward! Bad, bad vampire!
I laugh at myself and immediately gloomy

Finish with this

Yes, enough! Tomorrow you need to leave, run

Tomorrow again, the window, the shadows, Smell, wet wind, pulsating blood, Tenderness and Thirst and Desire

Two months. I collected these nights

Shades of smells, shades of her smiles, reflections of her dreams

As I used to guess through the shadows outside the window, what she was doing, now I was catching the shadows of dreams on her face, and this fascinated me. I used to these nights and could not imagine life without them

We began to spend more time together during the day, it became so natural to be with her.
...

Evening, the window, she speaks on the phone, turns around, excited, drops the phone

- How did you get here?

“A window,” I smile (I am so gentle, she is fragile and touching, so unbearably I want to touch her)

- And often do you do that? - smiling incredulously, asks Bella

I hear her heart pounding.

- The last couple of months. I love to watch you sleep! It is so ... fascinating

Teasing her is pleasure

Moving closer to me, Bella is silent, her eyes sparkle ...

And I decide

- Bella, I want to try one thing for a long time. Don't move please

Her face is opposite, her eyes, her lost breath, her Smell

God

I will let myself go - just for a second

just touch those lips ... only ...

Fire and Ice
we are shocked, pulled to each other, crazy

The proximity of her blood, the tenderness of her lips - Thirst and Desire and Tenderness

jaws reflexively clenched, Thirst dries the larynx, I almost feel how I dig into her lips and the hot flow of blood pacifies me, immobilizes, fills with force

Not!
A moan breaks from the lips ...

DO NOT THINK! DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!

Listen to her heart, drink her smell

Bella rushes to me, merges with me - we are merged together by her roast and my icy desire

Every touch of the lips, touching the tongue, her hands in my hair, my hands on her hips - like a flash of lightning in the dark, like a raging ocean and wind and heat in my face

I'm not

Have her lips and smell

Her tender burning body responding to every movement of my
Sorrow Thirst, Desire and Madness

Merges us together

A strangled roar comes out of my throat, I rush at her

We do not kiss each other - we, mad, drink each other

Our hands are trembling and torn, snatching from reality and burning: here are her hands tightening my shirt

my - tear off her T-shirt

Her - pull the belt on the pants and I help, trembling all over

Bella scent, blood and ice, salt and metal, musk and the fresh night wind and flowers

jaw cramps, I'm afraid I'm not kissing her anymore

Suddenly everything stops

Naked Bella lies beneath me, in her beautiful eyes - a reflection of my Thirst, strength and wisdom and tenderness and ... Love?

- I love you! - suddenly fills me with everything, it dawns, merging with Desire

- LOVE! - whispers to Bella

And I enter it
...

She is everywhere - around, in me, she is my arms, my eyes, my breath, my burning loins

We are ICE and FLAME

I'm afraid to disappear in it, hands, like an anchor, clutching at the back of the bed, yes, that's right, the consciousness notes

We begin to move, with each movement feeling how the spine vibrates with gold, and the WAVE increases

And we know that this wave will bury us under us and will not survive

And we will not stay

Because after this will not be our former

There will be a white ringing void

And we fly into it

...

And explode

...

Bella is lying on my chest, I rise up - I want to see her! No, I can not see her, do not touch her, do not idolize her

She looks up at me and the face, the dear, beloved face illuminates her happy smile

Gently kissing - lips, eyes, hot cheeks, catching her palm and kissing them, I pray for her - I LOVE

We are silent

Her mind is closed to my gift, but her eyes are now my reflection

She goes through my hair and smiles