"Doubt of the mind is our most evil worm,

Despair in oneself is the strongest poison; "

(Heinrich Heine - 1820)

“I tried different ways of sex. Ordinary

posture makes me claustrophobic, and from

the rest of my neck is numb. ”

(Tallulah Bankhead)

"It is known that if the penis is lacking

to the cervix just half a centimeter,

it is the same as if he were not

took out many centimeters "

(Chinese diploma)

I then worked as a boss. I had a department and seven subordinates: six women and a man. The company was engaged in the manufacture of ..., however, this is exactly the case and does not apply.

She came to the department when I worked for a year and a half.

Young specialist, young woman: slim, beautiful. Curly, shoulder-length, blond hair, gray, with blue steel luster, eyes, straight, neat nose and lips, in shape, slightly thinner than natural, always, as if stubbornly, pursed.

When the owner of the company came with her to the department and presented it, I got up to free the free table from the documents that we put on it.

Together with me she cleaned the folders and put them on the rack.

She was taller than me, though in heels, but I saw it taller.

I like tall, slender girls and I have always been a bit complex when next, this is how it turned out to be.

Name...

Then I fall into doubt, because if you call the heroine by another name, then I will have to describe her, recalling familiar women who wear this.

On the other hand, if you leave ...

Not!

Everything! Resolved! Let it be Natasha!

So, Natalia came to the department as a young specialist, immediately after graduating from the university.

I had to attach it to a specialist, elderly and already a year, as a retired man.

Mikhalych began to grumble - Well, when should I teach her, chief? Well, you see how I loaded!

Mikhalych grumbled so quietly that they heard everything in the department and the young specialist too.

I was embarrassed - Come on, smoke, Mikhalych!

Smoke Mikhalych loved.

We went outside.

- Mikhalych, are you embarrassing the girl?

- Yeah! - Mikhalych dragged on - And what are you?

- Well, I do not smoke, you know!

- Yeah! - he let out a smoke - You are embarrassing such as! Have you seen your eyes whining?

- Well, I saw what?

- And the fact that she already put an eye on you! Look, George! You are married, and she is hungry and actively searching.

- Mikhalych, are you already sober in the morning on the plot?

- Yes, I joke, I joke - Mikhalych spat on the cigarette butt and poked it into the crack, between the bricks, in the wall of the case

- Damn, Mikhalych, do you ever burn the shop. Total safety violation. We'll have to spend an extraordinary briefing. Well, what, take the girl in apprentice?

- Natasha, Natasha, two rubles, and ours! Will you pay me for training a young specialist?

- Well, how? Of course!

- Five rubles, and we are on it! If ten dug up - agree to anal!

Mikhalych was a womanizer and knew many obscene ditties.

- Persuaded! I take! And you noticed a wedding ring on the girl on your left hand! So young, and already married and been, and divorced.

We went to the department.

- Natalya Georgievna - I went to her desk, and she got up - will have an internship with Boris Mikhailovich. He is an experienced specialist and ... - I turned around - Mikhalych, how long will it take for you to convey the experience?

- Three! - answered Mikhalych, without thinking.

- OK, deal

I went down to the workshop and went to the archive to pick up drawings for Natalia.

- Valentine, - I put a sheet on the table - pick me up the drawings for the new employee

Valya, a young woman who recently returned from maternity, worked as an archivist. Her husband, Roman, worked as a mechanic in the workshop.

- Georgy Ivanovich - Valya smiled - you don't offend Natalia there, my girlfriend. She calmed down a bit now ...

Seeing my astonishment, she closed the archive door and, lowering her voice, reported that her husband had left Natalia: three months ago she went to another woman. Such a pair was! I was a friend at the wedding, where I met Romka. He was a friend of the groom.They served in the army together, in the same company or in the regiment. Oh, I'm confused all the time. I really do not know what happened to Oleg. I, too, to Romka - “Talk to him with you, friends, after all,” and he - “Well, why am I going to climb into a strange family?”

The conversation dragged on and I stepped towards the door.

- I myself - Valentine took a piece of paper - would bring the drawings myself.

But Natalya surprised everyone and even the battered ones, Mikhalycha puzzled.

Two weeks later, he himself came to me - Let's go smoke, chef!

I looked at the blueprints for the fixture and did not want to come off, but Mikhalych pulled me - We go, chef, come, we need to talk

He lit up - Here's the deal: the girl is smart, grabs everything on the fly. And she has more knowledge than me - I need to learn from her. But you, this, three months remain! Small money, but still an increase.

Mikhalych, suddenly, somehow sour - Here's an old fool!

I looked at him in surprise.

“I’m ashamed of me for that ditty — he looked away to the side — a good girl, kind, sympathetic.” I do not know what happened to her and her husband ... You do not insult her! - he got worn out, as if I was Natalia's husband

“My fatherly feelings for me are right ...” Mikhalych did not finish speaking and turned away.

By the movement of my left hand, I realized, I brushed away a tear. Mihalych has a daughter, a year ago, married a foreigner and went abroad with him: somewhere in Mauritius.

Mikhalych kept complaining to me - At first, she called every week, and now every two months. I ask when will you come to visit? And she says that her husband on business trips around the world is dangling, and one, he says, I will not go - pregnant. Mikhalych smiled - waiting for grandson! Or granddaughter.

Mikhalych turned to me.

His eyes were red.

- Do not hurt her, chef!

- Mikhalych, well, with what dick do I offend her? Yes, I like it!

Mikhalych looked at me and squinted slyly - You, Ivanovich, do not forget: you have a wife and children.

I was embarrassed: I liked Natalya and I had thoughts about her account of Sovseeem not noble, and really far from her father's feeling.

Or rather, desire.

Increasingly, I found myself sneaking around and even admiring Natalia when she was sitting at her desk studying the drawings. When she walked swiftly along the aisle of the shop, slightly brushing off her left, free hand and pressing her right to her thigh with the drawings.

Natalya was dressed nebly and apparently for a reason: beautiful and lush clothes attract attention and distract from appearance; at first. Natalia did not need this: all the attention, the person who saw her for the first time, immediately focused on her!

“Why are you blushing, chief?” - Mikhalych, everything also, with a cunning squint, looked at me.

- You think I did not see how you sit in the twenty? You live on the same array? And go home next?

- That's all, Mikhalych! - he just finished smoking - Go work work! I need to go to the procurement.

It turns out that not only I spied.

Yes, I got close to Natalia very quickly! Affected by the fact that only two of us had a higher education; and the fact that we both went in for skiing; and even that Natalia had a patronymic Georgievna.

Despite the isolation and silence in the department, Natalya turned out to be sociable, and we easily talked, feeling for common themes when we first went to the bus together from work.

And ten days later, our relationship became so trusting that she told me about her husband: she was tormented by doubts and ambiguity of what happened.

From her story, I realized that she blamed herself for something, although Natalia did not go into details ....