My name is Kolya and I am pleased to remember my first intimacy with a woman. It happened to me late, I was then 27. Because I can’t tell my friends about it - they will just laugh. It’s no secret that guys are embarrassed about the late onset of sexual activity - at least those with whom it happened after 20. And after 25, that’s it! Moreover, I have always been sensitive and shy. Even the words sex was shy, and a virgin - he blushed like a tomato at once.

It is clear that I did not have girls. Why? It's hard to answer right away. The emissions from me started late - at 15 years old and immediately frequent and abundant. Well, I had to regularly masturbate. I was addicted specifically - almost daily descended. If 2-3 days I do not jerk off - so it is worth it that unbearable. There were involuntary orgasms - mainly in the cinema on erotic scenes. Remember the movie "Once Upon a Time in America"? There is a scene in the car where the hero rapes the bride. Right by the driver! They showed almost everything - how he pulled her dress up, tore up his underpants, how he moved his hips, and she screamed. In general, my heart started beating frantically, and I was well relieved in my pants. I generally rape scenes give birth.

There was also a film - "Choice", there Dvorzhetsky plays. So there the girl went to the village, got off the train, and then the guys on the bikes offered to let her down. Well, drove to some abandoned trailer. Dragged, she screamed wildly, but around the field and no one. Jerk pulled off her dress, she stayed in some white panties! One took his hands and laid him on the floor. Then he showed how her legs flashed in the window! Slowly take turns outraged and left. There were three or four! Then she returned home in a torn dirty dress, locked herself in a bath. There, her father knocked to open. She was a virgin. In the trailer the floor was covered in blood - when my father arrived there. In general, I almost died there at the session! Yes, this Belokhvostikova played. Well, of course, Emmanuel and everything like that made me wildly excited.

Even the education of course played a role. Hard and uncompromising. I will not spread here. My parents understood sex as something dirty, bad, and almost criminal. What can not talk. I had to study and learn. They always remembered the classic “I don’t want to learn, but I want to marry!” - well, they say, and you, like Mitrofanushka, do you want to? Well, about the girls it never got started, and if they tried, then I just blush. Well, here my shyness and bashfulness played a role. And probably isolation too. Well, I did not like and could not communicate in a team!

But this does not mean that I could not get acquainted with the girls. It turned out, but the trouble is - these girls did not attract me at all. And on the chaste trip to the movie it did not go. Well, I did not want to communicate with the girl if I didn’t like her! Now I understand that I probably had a dozen chances. But somehow by! But those who I liked, in my direction did not even look! Well, I did not go out physically at all!

And this is how I graduated from the institute, even without kissing once! While I was frantically crazy, friends and fellow students around got their first experience and started a normal sex life. Mostly at the age of 17-22 years. Seryoga came to the first course from the army, and the first time he had before the army was at 18. Volodya in the first year knew love with a classmate, and my best friend Valya became a man at 19 with some kind of saleswoman Silpo when he worked in the construction team. He did not like this sex as I understood it - he dismissed the details - they said he put in all that! Roma, who was also from the army, had an affair with a fellow student, and soon they got married. Somewhere in the years 22-23, he lost her innocence.

Then a few more couples signed. Almost all the guys at the end of school have become experienced. Except for Pavlik and me. And I only dreamed of raising the skirt of a girl and seeing her panties ... And despite the fact that the most offensive, everyone understood my innocent state.At a graduation party in a restaurant, one fellow student wished me to find my love. And it sounded like a wish to finally get the first sexual experience. I was offended then ... And now, even the most shy and notorious Pavlik married in 25 years and “opened” his honeymoon. I stayed in touch with him, was visiting them and his wife, who was his older, told me somehow while drunk that her husband was a virgin and she “tore off his virginity.” A year later, they already had a child. What a shame I was!

After graduation, I worked for a year at a research institute, and then ... I was thrown at various offices and part-time jobs. And my whole social circle narrowed down, because I very difficult to find a language with the female sex. In general, it became deaf as in a tank. Everywhere alone, adults are married ... And I imagined my first girl so pure, innocent, young, dreamed of how I would take her, as I would whisper words of love to her ... I could not imagine how everything would happen! So three years have passed ... and now I, finally, tired of all this bustle, decided to rest - go to the sea. It was August - the peak season. My mother called a friend, and they left me a room - Crimea, Alushta. Dream! For two days I was all impatient with anticipation and fees. And even forgot about my friend! Then the train and here in the late evening I am in Simferopol. Public transport does not go, and taxis are expensive. And I decided to spend the night at the station, saving at night ... I walked along the platform all night, and finally, I already slept on the bus ... In general, on the first day I just slept, got up in the evening, started looking around. And my friend also woke up and already powerfully declared himself - 4-day abstinence showed itself!

I settled in a small room of a rather large private house. Inside the house was a pass-through corridor, and on both sides of the room - only 5-6 rooms. The kitchen was in the yard. All the rooms were occupied and my neighbor turned out to be a woman of 30-35 years old, who came with her daughter about 12. We met, her name was Marina. She was full, as they say "in the body" a woman with large breasts the size of the fifth. But then she seemed pretty mature to me. I stare at the very young girls - 14-16 years! In the evening, vacationers gathered in the yard, washed, cooked, rested, dined. I was alone, and Marina invited me to her company. There was also a couple from Leningrad with a son of primary school age. On the very first evening, Marina began to ask me about herself, gradually moving to personal questions: how old am I, where did you study, what do you do, how many friends, with whom do you live, is there a girlfriend. I responded at random, intimidating and writing on the go. Since I lived with my parents, my friends all fled to their homes, and I did not have any particular hobbies. Of course, I talked about music (I loved Heavy Metal), that I love to ride a bike and other nonsense. About the girl, I replied that I was, but we broke up. She asked why. Here I have already told almost the truth - I went to another guy. The fact is that at the institute I was in love with fellow student Lena, even ineptly tried to care for her, if you can call it that. But she chose Roma, who studied in my group. They became friends, she went to his dacha, and a year later they signed. Actually in the country they got their first intimate experience, it was clear from their faces and communication. It was a blow to me, I was very jealous, stopped communicating with him. Over time, of course, the offense passed, but the disappointment of failure remained.

It got dark, we sat in the yard at the table, it was a wonderful warm southern evening, it was already late. Daughter Marina sent to bed, the neighbors separated, we were left alone. Marina listened to me and suddenly said: Have you ever kissed? Well, that was dark, because I immediately began to blush. Well, yes, of course, I have a girlfriend, we work together ... - I started frantically writing. - Do not lie! - my friend snapped abruptly: You didn't have anyone! I immediately stopped myself, turning red and even sweated. - Well, what are you! - Marina said gently and got up: Come here! She pulled me to her, pulled and touched ...