“For many years I have been pondering over earthly life.

There is no incomprehensible for me under the moon.

I know that I do not know anything!

Here is the last, however, opened by me. ”

Omar Khayyam

Prologue. Reflections 2. Galina.

When I came back to me, I was all banged! There was an impression that I got sick, but I did not get sick physically. As in that cartoon about Carlson, Frekenbock: “And I lost my mind ...! And I lost my mind ...! La-la-la! ” I went to the bed Shreds, straightened the blanket. He snuffled in three holes, and he didn’t care what happened to me. Washed, and went to the balcony to smoke. Memory, this curse and joy, twisted before the eyes of the "cinema": Here we stand in the shower, and he enters into me like a "beast" !; here hugs, I caress my charms on the balcony; here ...; here ...; ... I guess I can not sleep today, I thought, and lay down on the bed to enjoy the memories. But the body took its own, and after about 5 minutes, I was already asleep, shuddering in my sleep.

I woke up from the fact that Genka, tugging at my hand and demandingly asked: “Bah, and when will we go for a walk?”. But I did not want to wake up, I had a wonderful dream! I'm on a desert island in the southern seas. Around the yellow-white hot sand, gentle warm sea, behind the beach line, shady palm trees and he! We are naked and make love! And so, when he wants to enter my ass, and already put his dick to the anus, from where, from the palm trees, my not tolerable grandson Tolik comes running, begins to shake my hand and ask: "When will we go for a walk?" Needless to say, I was terribly angry and ... woke up. And even for some time I could not understand where I am! And only the persistent shouts of Tolik, led me to myself. I glanced at the clock, floor 11. Lord, I overslept breakfast, the child was not fed, I had a raskardash in my head. Well, full out and fly!

I had to get up. First of all I clarified with my grandson, if he wants to eat? But it turns out that “an independent young man” managed to “have breakfast”! Having eaten half a kilo of candy and a pack of cookies. Only wants to drink. I sighed, poured him juice and went to wash. Played, Grandma, I thought to myself. Having put myself in order and combing my hair, I noticed that the pocket of the robe is bulging. Actually, I have no habit of stuffing my pockets anywhere, and I teach this to my grandson! And here, in appearance, full pocket. Well, I'll fix it in karma, get out ..., my bra and panties, and most importantly, they are not rolled by me! And then I remembered, remembered yesterday evening, a shower and everything else. Yet it was not exactly a dream! Bright, associative memories stood before my eyes, as if I was reliving what had happened yesterday. Hands were heavy, a “ringing” appeared in my head, my stomach sank, and my nipples swelled. I wanted to drop everything and run there, into yesterday’s room! Whatever ... Gena got in here again: “Baba, you will soon!” Of course, he is ready. Happy age! I had to rinse my face urgently in order to wash off my delusion and go to dress. As we walked along the corridor, past Andrei’s room, I knocked on it, but it was quiet outside the door, and I decided that he had gone somewhere. Perhaps waiting for us at the sea, after all the time of our walks. And we with Gena, almost running, rushed to walk, to our place, our path with Andrew!

Part 1. The tricks of "'Moroka'"! Andrew.

(Morok - in Slavic mythology - the god of lies and deception, ignorance and delusions. But he is also the keeper of the paths to the Truth, hiding the Truth from others behind an empty worldwalk. Note The author)

I woke up from sleeping. It was in my heart, well, the birds sang ... True, I had an excellent riser, but as they say "this is a fixable matter, you just need to know who to get rid of it with!". And I knew! True, yesterday’s thoughts came, but what if ... People like that always. There are no problems, so we create them ourselves, at least in our thoughts.Judging by the time before lunch, an hour remained, breakfast and procedures, I, of course, overslept! Well, no wonder, then I went to bed, an hour at 3 nights! He washed, dressed, and went to pay a visit courtesy. I really wanted to see Galina, look into her eyes, and read there that I was needed, they did not reject me! Released. I went to their door, listened. There was silence behind the door. Knocked, of course no one answered me! Probably went for a walk, I decided, and went our way. But having passed it from end to end, I did not meet anyone. I looked for a while, before lunch, 15 minutes, my stomach started to gurgle, and the body gave a definite solution: I want to eat! I went to the dining room, well, there I will meet them. But, as always: “Man assumes, and fate disposes!”. There they were not the same. He ate and waited for them for half an hour. Do not go! The mood deteriorated, the birds who sang in the morning in the shower, it seems, are dead. I decided once again to check in the case, ran a short way through the rocks. But they were not at home! I almost broke the door, tarabanya in it! Where did they go, and what did I not know with them? The only thing that came to mind, does not want to see me, and is hiding. Suddenly I wanted to get drunk to forget everything and ... I spat on everything and went to the store in the village, over a bottle.

Part 2. The tricks of "'Moroka'"! Galina. Continued.

Hurrying, constantly driving Tolya, we walked along the path, our path. It seemed that we would turn around the bend, and there he was! Smile, and say: "Well, you and Sony! I've been waiting for you here for a long time! And, probably, he will kiss and hug! ” From such thoughts, the soul was good! But turn by turn, and there was no one in front. And Tolya got rid of where we were going, let's play here, I'm tired ... Well, the whole repertoire of a hungry and mischievous boy. I had to stop, Tolya ran to the shore, and so I went down with him. (Off the trails) While he was crawling along the beach, collecting some of his treasures, I lit a cigarette, and from time to time I looked at the path. The fact is that there was a shrub growing on the shore, and the path was visible, only about 5 meters. But I didn’t see anyone. Then Tolya dragged me to build a house out of sand, I got carried away and ... We almost missed lunch. Came to the dining room 10 minutes before closing. On the table, lonely stood, two plates, with the cooled soup, the second and compote. They ate, all the same with appetite, for the future, noted the need for fasting days, how they both slupili everything on the table! After lunch, slowly went to the building. I had already imagined our meeting with Andrei, especially in half an hour at Tolik’s sleep an hour. He sleeps well during the day, about two hours. Well, Andrei and I will “sit and talk”! From such thoughts on the soul was good, and wet in shorts! This is not a task, okay, come, change it. With such frivolous thoughts came. Going to her house, I instructed my grandson to get ready for bedtime, and she, changing her panties, went, but did not go, flew on the wings, to Andrew! She went to the door, straightened her hair, knocked. Silence! Knocked louder. Same. Looking around and no one, not seeing the peep through the keyhole. NONE! It was then that I was not well. Thoughts jumped hares. I did not like it, the “girlfriend” for the night, the young gigolo ... and so on. I wanted to roar in three throats, so it became a shame! I am for him ... and he did not appreciate. Even the tears rolled, so it became a pity. Then I heard Tolik's voice: “Grandma, you will soon, I am ready! Let's read a fairy tale! ” I wiped away the tears, gathered myself, painted a smile on my face, and returned to the room. He was already lying on the cot, hiding, and holding a book. I approached him, sat down and opened the book to read, although I did not understand what I was reading about! Thoughts rushed from yesterday to today. I tried to find falsehood in Andrei’s behavior, and I didn’t find my mistakes, by the way the same. But, as always: “Man assumes, and fate disposes!”. While I was digging into myself, Tolik fell asleep. And then, having stopped reading and seeing his pretty face, I burst into tears. I felt sorry for myself, cursed a cursed life, men - bastards, in general, the usual female tantrum.

Part 3. Worldly pendulum. Andrew.

Having run out of the corps, I quickly went to the village. But I, for some reason, no longer wanted to drink. I stopped to think about how to live.We must meet with her anyway, look into her eyes, say that it’s not good to do that! ...