I myself can’t understand how it happened to me, I still can’t forgive and understand myself ...

It was in grade 10, I lived in a boarding school ...

The holidays were approaching, and we were all sent home.

But I very much quarreled with my mother and sister, for this I knew that they would not come to take me away for the holidays. (I have no father) Everything would be fine, but the boarding school would be closed during the holidays, and there was no money for the way home, not for friends. And so I came face to face before starvation. I stood ... and looked like I was taking everyone home, but my mother was not ... I was in despair, I didn’t know what to do. But then a sweet thought flashed through my head ... But what about Anastasia, my Nastya ... She lives very, very close ... But I couldn’t come to her just like that, I loved her, and she didn’t , and, like all girls, she probably scrutinized me for this strong love of mine. So I decided to pity ... I went through the rain all day ... I tore and dirted my clothes, and only when it began to get dark went to her house, Nastya opened the door for me, a pretty woman with long hair (blonde) in a short robe .. oh how I loved her, when she saw me, she stood puzzled at the door and said:

- What happened to you, why you are not at home ...

I told her everything and at the end added:

- May I live with you on holidays, I will agree with your parents myself ...

- My parents left to return only after a month ... Come in.

It solved all the problems ... She gave me clean clothes and took me to the kitchen, make tea ... I sat down on a chair and watched her ... beautiful, leaned over and her short robe went up exposing her hips and beautiful ass, this picture I was terribly excited, and I did not understand what I was doing, approached her from behind and hugged her, she turned to me, and tried to say something, but my lips bit into her ... And my hands began to unbutton her unbuttoned buttons on her robe and then all unzipped my hand touched her tummy and began to slowly move into s to the cherished goal. Then she seemed to wake up shoved me and closed her bathrobe. I was enraged by the rage ... "I was being pushed ???" I grabbed her ha robe, pulled her to me

and hit her face hard as she cried like a baby ...

- Don't bother me ... - she whispered through tears ...

I pulled her close, pressed hard on my head, so she only knelt ... Her head was right between my legs, I must say, I was very excited and my jeans started to press, she saw it ...

- No, I don't want to - she cried ...

But I was already unstoppable, like a demon, I took out my weapon and grabbed her hair and forced me to suck, which of course she obviously couldn’t do, then I decided to just fuck her in the mouth, I moved her head back and forth, she cried, now and then it was choking ... and now I felt that now I was finishing, I pulled her head and ...

She tried to spit it out, but I held tightly and pressed her head. She had to drink everything, I let go of her head, took her by the shoulders and lifted her off the floor. My anger disappeared ... as suddenly as it appeared ... and now I could not believe what I did, but my tear-stained, all in semen face and also followed by a strong blow, made me believe in soda otherwise.

I felt sorry for her, I began gently wiping her tears, and then I reached out to her and kissed her, but the kiss seemed to me to be mutual. She seemed to understand that I calmed down and now regret what I did, putting my head on my chest, she quietly cried, through tears I made out what she was saying:

“Why don't you hate me so much?” For what?

- I do not hate you, but I love ... and for a very long time ...

And after that, my hands fell to her waist ... I lifted her light body in my arms ... and transferred to the bed ... This time she herself was terribly excited and burning with desire, her pulse quickened ... I took off her robe and began to cover with kisses all her breasts ... I began to descend lower and lower, and when I reached the goal I took off her panties and started playing with her clitoris tongue ... She began to moan all soaked up, and I realized that it was time ... I took out my weapon and led it to her sexual lips. .. and ... she made a terrible moan ... Blood poured out of her ...

- So you were a girl ... - I said, and smiled sweetly, now I knew that for the holidays I would lose her more than once ... And that she had already fallen in love with me ... But the violence that I did was not how can I not forgive myself!