This is an excerpt from my diary. I no longer lead him, but I keep him — sometimes it is nice to be attached to memories and to experience the events of a long past time.

It was in the hostel of our institute after passing the next exam. The group and I were having a pretty good time: drinking wine, vodka and beer, dancing. There were a lot of guys not only from the group, but also from the dorm. So we went to visit one of them with one guy - Sergey. Andrew, that was the name of the one to whom we went to visit, offered to smoke shmali. I have never tried it before, and if I were in good condition, I would certainly refuse. But, since we were all by then already in a pretty drunk and the brakes almost refused, I agreed. Andrei scored a “cant” and suggested that I try it first, but I refused. Then he, having lit his "cant" and having taken the first inhale, handed it over to Sergey, and he then gave it to me. Having no experience in this case, I probably smoked too much “weed” and therefore I was even more unlucky. Suddenly Sergey said that he needed to get home and got out into the corridor. I ran after him to ask him to stay, but he only waved his hand. Suddenly I felt bad and returned to Andrei’s room. When he saw that I was not well, Andrew helped me lie down on the bed, and he himself went into the next room. After some time, he returned and, turning on the VCR, lay down next to me. After some time, I realized that he put "porn". We watched her a bit, but when they started to show some dirty scenes, I asked her to turn it off, which he did. So we lay nearby - how much, I do not know.

Suddenly he kissed me - I answered. We started kissing - at first slightly touching each other with lips, then he put his tongue in my mouth and we started kissing “seriously”. He stroked my legs, then decided to touch my chest, I removed his hands, but he was persistent. I had no experience of sexual relations before (I was still a girl), but with my ex-boyfriend we sometimes went very far in my games, I even gave him blows several times, so I behaved quite naturally. In shorts, I was already all wet with desire and cramped hips. My skirt was high and Andrei drove a palm between my legs, I simply melted away from these touches. After a while I was already without pantyhose and underwear. He, without ceasing to kiss me, began to insert a finger into my vagina. I was very pleased. I stroked my hands over the tight tubercle of his pants, trying to unzip and release his penis out. He knelt down and, unbuttoning his trousers, took them off with his underpants. I could not wait any longer, I wanted him to stick his dick into me faster. I spread her legs and took him by the dick, oh, oh, he was smooth and so hard! I decided to send it to myself in the hole, but I did not succeed. Then Andrew took it and put it in my hole. It hurt me, and I told him about it. He began to gently enter my penis into the vagina, until he introduced all. He began to move in me - I was very pleased, for the first time I felt the male member in me, and it was great. But he did not go deep - I did not understand, whether he was so careful, or if he had a short member. Suddenly he stopped and began to cum in me. We lay for a couple of minutes, then he got up and went to the shower.

Returning from the shower, he offered to go to the shower and me. Barely flushed - there was no light, I drank a pill so that there were no consequences in the form of pregnancy and, dressed, came out. Andrei came up to me and began stroking my chest; he probably wanted to continue, but I said that it was time for me to go home and asked if he would take me to a stop. He obviously did not want to do this, but reluctantly dressed, and we went downstairs. We walked to the bus stop without talking, and we were also silent at the bus stop.

My bus came up, he kissed me and I got on the bus. My heart was disgusting and bitter.Did it all happen that way.

Many times I imagined how this would happen, but so that, and where, and with whom?