Fragments of the city, like thoughts, are driven into the ground To be buried in it is not forever Fear of the wrong step is imprinted in the memory. And looking back so scrapes and crushes The impossibility of knowing what will happen in the future Gives meaning to life, like everything missed. We were expelled from paradise, slammed the door And we avenge the planet; and we are here now ...

Prologue

Dolores was so tired of changing the doors in her room because Galy, in search of a missing disk or condom, and then cocaine and weed, was breaking it out with her grinders.

- Come out, I know you took it! - The sound of boots on the door grew louder and more insistent.

“Get off me, Galy, I never take your things.”

“I will shove you into a jerk now and give you a kick so that the memories I need will fly out of your stupid head.”

Dolores was desperate. With their girlfriend in the misfortune of Padra, they dug a secret passage in the wall using a local explosion and blocked it with a sofa so that in such cases there was a place to hide.

And then the door flew off its hinges and fell to the floor with a deafening crash. Galy burst into the room and, seizing the sister by the neck and pressing Padra with her boot, squirted obscene words with her saliva. Galy's two teeth were “rabbit” ... one of the consequences of a fight with a former gang. Through them she slightly lisped, pronouncing the "bitch" in such a way that she got a "fuka." Finally, it turned out what had happened to the very magazine that Galy needed, and everything had calmed down for a while. Padra with Dolores, recovering from the next raid, continued to live. They ate sweets, watched clips on TV and rang the two favorite guys who hated them every now and then. Only one thing hindered - the crash of hard rock behind the wall in Galy's room.

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“Bart, please,” little brothers and sisters cried and shouted after her, “don't leave us! ...”

However, she didn’t care what happened to them. Walking the little clumsy lion cub, striving towards the goal, like the lion cub from the cartoon The Lion King, little Bart ran to the forest — only through him was the exit to the city. And let her path take days, weeks, but she will reach the capital, where the light and the audience are, where people and life, glory and respect. She did not want to burden herself with surviving relatives; perhaps they are doomed to be eaten by wolves in this wild forest, through which even experienced hunters were afraid to walk, but she was not one of them, by any means. She was not going to be a failure or to put up with her fate, she and she alone will choose her life path, no one has the truth to do it for her. It should also be noted that Bart did not belong to the great heroines, about whom prominent writers often write in novels, did not belong to the intellectual miss who achieved something high in their lives. It was a temperamental and not particularly smart, or rather, quite stupid girl. She hated the whole world, and the world was indifferent to her, and it is unclear what she strived for all her life and what she achieved in consequence and whether it was exactly what she wanted to receive from life.

It is light. Bart turned into the woods, trying hard not to get in sight of the brothers and sisters. They were not morally dear to her, although they had common parents, all the more they were bound by nothing after the death of the mother at the birth of the fifth child. The children almost never had a father, part of them was born of a rapist who exploited his mother before he was put in a city prison, the same non-native personality for Barta, like everyone else.

As she later said in one of the interviews, even before she finally fell, it is impossible to convey in any of those cheap films in which she was forced to shoot, fear at the intersection of the thicket separating cold light from warm rot.No one got out of there alive, maybe that is why the deaf village lived its senseless measured life, fearing the wolves, who were living in a threatening forest, no one almost ever went into the city. When you master the usual Mowgli skills in one minute in order to save your miserable life from predators. When you have to tremble every second, making your way through the thicket in the hope of finding the only light, ready to step back already, for the last hope to get out has died away. But, despite all her simplicity and straightforwardness, she was a strong personality, and who knows, maybe she was one of “extra people”.

Bart overcame this. She overcame everything in her path ... when directors of porn films openly explained to her a situation called something like this ... "there are many who want, show your skills in bed, then maybe we will do something for you" - she’s already even this did not bother. For money and fame, she was ready for anything. Although, probably, she needed more money. But, my God, this is not the woman who was such up to middle age. Bartha is a talented actress and singer; a scene is her calling or this is one of her only ways of living.

On the way to the light, she was picked up by one good-natured Pard - a very wealthy and, most importantly, disinterested man who does not require anything in return from a little girl.

- Girl, are you all alone here? He asked with horror at the sight of a six-year-old child wandering around a big city.

- Quite. - It was impossible to look without pain at her unhappy face.

- And where are your mom and dad? Such a beautiful girl should have wonderful parents.

- They have never been.

There was something frightening in these words. It is one thing if she said that her parents were dead, and another that they did not exist at all. She did not have them, and she herself never became a mother to anyone.

In addition to her, Parda already had one more such, just another breed, and children from several wives. He singled out the room for the "aliens", kept them, helped to get a decent school, he became one of the sources of material support for Barta. Of course, she loved him as the only relative, she was sincerely grateful to him for everything, but she herself played a major role in the development of her destiny. Of course, Pard understood that something would probably come out of Barta, he already saw something special in her then. Often watching her and Nancy play in the “TV men” in the living room near a huge TV, Pard had a presentiment. He knew that he hadn't picked her up for nothing.

There was no humor here ... in the lessons of Barta’s friend, Leela taught her to “borrow” her work from her classmates. It happened like this ... The teacher turns away for one second, and at the same time Leela turns to the botanist sitting behind and tenderly takes the job from him under the pretext of "do not give it - you will regret it later." Later, already from the mouth of her friend, it sounded like this ... "Give me - suck." All her life she only did that she paid for something, never did something herself, it took too much time and a clever head. From an early age, Bart realized that it was better to pay for everything in the back seat. No, in fact, not so bad; moments of shame are combined with shameful, humiliating pleasure, and then you look in the mirror without recognizing your face, and regret that you voluntarily signed up for this business. So she made her way. By the age of 16, she had become “the most popular girl in school.” Even then, she was like a star ... she walked in bright clothes with the gait of a slutty queen, preferring red, knowing that everyone was ready to become impotent, just to sleep with her, for by that time she had become particularly experienced, real "Tigress in bed." But only the most quick-witted immediately made me aware that Bart needed a benefit - only then would she lie with you in bed.For example, if you let her write off a test or get a rare disk of her favorite group (although she was not very keen on music), in general, whatever, so that she could have any profit from having sex with you.

She had ...