Late evening. I wander along the quiet alleys of the park, inhaling the spicy smell of the coming night. He intoxicates me and I feel my head spin. More recently, this tart aroma of tenderness of the night enveloped us both. Just yesterday, according to earthly laws, but I know that eternity has passed ...

I am wearing only black fishnet stockings and high-heeled shoes. I turn on a nice tune and wait for you. I hear you open the door and hear the faint sound of your footsteps. You come to me, I sit in your favorite chair with a glass of wine. I see the desire flashed in your eyes. You lean in and kiss your lips, still keeping the sweet taste of my favorite drink. For some reason you are like him. Sweet, darling, only you can get a lot of cold. I inhaling your so familiar and so dear smell, feeling your skin under my palms ...

I know all night we will caress each other, but we will not be able to satisfy ourselves. I will have few of your caresses, and I will want you again. Only in the morning, tired and happy, we can sleep.

Morning. The body aches a bit, you can see barely noticeable marks on the delicate skin, and the lips are swollen with passionate kisses. But the enjoyment received is immeasurable. I look at him. A ray of sunshine slides along his cheek, and long pointed lashes cast fancy shadows. He will wake up and his transparent greenish-blue eyes will look at me.

I remember our first meeting with you. It seems that it was quite recently, and maybe several thousand years ago. I walked through the spring park. And I thought about the next scandal caused among my friends Svetka, about the affairs in the office and about nonsense. Suddenly I heard your voice. You said some banal nonsense. I decided that they were pestering me again, and decided to shoot you off. But you looked at me with your shy eyes and smiled a boyish smile giving away some kind of childishness. And suddenly, so unexpectedly for myself, I smiled at you. Simple, clean and sincere. So long ago there was nothing like that with me. You put your arms around my waist, and for some reason I did not give you a loud slap in the face. Just now I noticed the voices of the birds singing around, the sun disinterestedly giving us its warmth. And in your eyes I saw a huge endless sky and green leaves.

I had a lot of men and never had a shortage of them. That they made me the way I appeared before you at that moment. Cold, unfeeling and callous in dealing with people. There was sex, a sea of ​​sex. And the true feelings never happened. And how I wanted sincerity, kindness, understanding and great love. I lost faith in her find and my heart was covered with a crust of ice. Boy, how did you do it? How did you manage to melt my ice fortress, in which I lived for so many years, only with your half-child smile? I like it so much when you smile at her.

I want to lie next to him and wait for his awakening ... just have to go to work, and you don't want to. I kiss your lips. Sleep, I do not want to wake you, because you have nowhere to hurry today

I'm quietly going and leaving.

“Good morning,” says a familiar voice. And this is our neighbor Alinochka, good girl

“Good morning” - I answer already purely automatically, I don’t care about anyone.

I walk down the street and think about upcoming affairs, and I want to stay with you and weave our bodies again and again, take off at the spikes of pleasure and fall again, so that you can fly higher.

"Well, all this will still be ...", - I comfort myself.

I go in, greet everyone and smile. On the table a pile of papers. I sit down and think about you again. You are always with me, always in my thoughts. What a pity that I can not see your eyes now. I love to look at them when you wake up in the morning next to me or I wake up and the first thing I see is your warm and soft eyes. And the huge aquamarine waves of your heat roll on me and cover me from head to foot ...

- - Lenka, why are you thinking again? Come down from heaven to earth!

I look at Svetka with bewildered eyes, but I really did see ...

- - Okay, Lenka, you don't care anymore today, get home, I'll finish everything myself ...

- - Oh, Svetka, thank you so much ... - I fly up and kiss her on the cheek. Happiness overwhelms me

- - Go, go ... until I changed my mind ...

And I'm flying home to him. He is probably still sleeping or getting up and walking naked through the apartment. I pass by the guards, smiling at them ... I know that they look after me and admire me. I walk down the street and everyone looks around at me. I shine with happiness. I do not feel the ground under my feet, as if walking in the clouds. I think only about you.

I walk to the door and try to open the door as quietly as possible. I want to surprise you, suddenly appearing at home. I want to see how you will be pleased to me.

I enter the apartment and on the wings of happiness I fly into the bedroom ...

My head is getting dark, my heart seems to be beating in my temples, my throat is suddenly dry. Life has stopped for me.

The whole room was filled with moans and the musky scent of hot bodies of passion.

SHOCK! Shock! How? There are thousands of questions in my head ...

I am looking at you. I look at your hands, which are stuck in her beautiful thighs. She bends back and for every your movement a moan escapes from her throat. Your eyes are half closed. ALIN! Wow...

It seems the lovers felt my presence and noticed me. Her legs stopped obeying, and her knees trembled treacherously. I had a chill. Nevertheless, I considered unnecessary stupid scenes of jealousy and hurried away.

Now I am again walking in our park. I throw back my head and admire such a stunning sky ... it is so kind, eternal and infinitely beautiful. It gives a feeling of peace and its reflection I once saw in your eyes.

Suddenly I notice you, you go to me.

What should I feel? Jealous? Hate? Desire for revenge? Maybe if he was different, I would have done so. I always fight for what belongs to me. Only you are different and now I am different ...

- - Hi ..., - -I look into your eyes again. They are a little sad, even sad, and usually a carefree smile seems apologetic.

- - Sorry...

But why should you apologize to me? You never said you love me. Of course, I am a little sad and hurt ... But you never promised anything, but just gave me the opportunity to love you. I never demanded your love, I just wanted to give you mine. I shake my head slightly in a negative gesture, smile at you ...

- - - Thank you, my boy...

My fingers against my will reach for you, and for the last time I feel the warmth and smoothness of your young skin.

- - Goodbye!

I turn around and leave. I smile, why should I be sad. So what if my love was broken and all my dreams collapsed? They can not be glued together! It is beyond the powers of mere mortals living in this worst of worlds. I will survive. I have the strength.

I left him in complete confusion, he did not understand anything. Now, but someday he will understand everything. The feeling of tenderness and gratitude for this beautiful boy overwhelms me. He did not give me his love, but returned the ability to love. He brought me back to life, healed me of old spiritual wounds and gave me hope to find happiness ...