... She woke up suddenly as if shocked ... listened ... this has happened more than once in the past few years - sudden waking up with a feeling of incomprehensible alarm and a pounding heart. It was not pleasant, because this awakening was followed, as a rule, by a sleepless night in an empty and cold bed. But now everything was different - she was not alone, the warmth emanating from him was proof of that ...
Immediately it became so calm, cozy and even a little fun ... he slept very soundly, that serene healthy sleep, how children sleep ... so close he never had before and she had the opportunity to freely see his features as far as the lighting allowed. She had not experienced such a tide of tenderness for a long time, how many times in dreams she had kissed his eyes, lips, and surprised arched eyebrows, and now she barely restrained the desire to touch him, so close and dear, and her thoughts were already unwinding. ..
He appeared in her field of vision not in the best period of her life ... Her world is such a cozy and warm home, her family has served as an example for friends for many years - it all collapsed irreversibly ... Left by her husband for the young mistress, she is very I tried to hide the whole nightmare of what was happening and at the same time worked hard on myself. Like a caterpillar before turning into a butterfly, she wove her cocoon enclosing herself, and what was left of the family from evil gossip and gossip, while externally remaining happy and cheerful. All the uninitiated did not cease to be surprised at her changes ... And only god knew what it cost her.
He appeared in the office of her husband so clumsy - stout, tall and energetic, the staff immediately dubbed him "Geek". She also noted to herself his attractiveness and some chastity.
That's just the voice does not fit with his appearance, so soft and enveloping that I wanted to forget everything and listen, listen ...
The task of "geek" was the maintenance of machines and the training of teapots in the basics of users. The teaching was given to her tightly against the background of all the stresses that she had to experience daily at work when communicating with her husband, and in order not to deprive her of support and at home, it was decided to install ICQ on the home computer, so that they could continue training every evening after work. Gradually, communication has ceased to be only a teacher, and they have already spoken on various topics, sometimes even deep into the night ... Not giving themselves an account of that, she was probably very afraid of loneliness, and these virtual conversations about everything and nothing kept her on afloat.
He once wrote that in his life there are two of the most dear to him man - his wife and daughter ... These words burned, sobered ... In THAT EVENING SHE DECIDED WHAT WILL BE TURNED OVER ...
It was difficult to delve into things, everything was new and unfamiliar, the principles of thinking of a housewife with 12 years of experience did not fit into commerce, but she could, moreover, could even return her spouse. She did not take into account only one thing, that all this time changing both externally and internally - she completely destroyed her love for her husband, could not forgive betrayal ... It remains what could be called only respect with a touch of bitterness and sadness for the past time - that the time when she was loved. So she was destined (she decided) to live without love and affection ...
Replacing the place of residence, building his house - his little fortress again, she already began to calm down, but something constantly pulled back to where He was ...
Arriving on business trips, she first called him (the temptation was too great to hear his voice again) was interested in his affairs, they sometimes met - but the communication was crumpled, she was lost, carried some sort of nonsense, and then was angry with herself for it. This guy is hardly the only man who was able to embarrass her.I was angry until I realized that I was just in love with him.
In one of her visits, she was horrified to find out that he was in trouble ... family problems ...
He has changed a lot - he began to look into the glass, friends appeared corresponding to this addiction. She couldn’t come to terms with it ... Every day she made up problems to her office to fix all kinds of faults, she saw that he didn’t want to go home, nobody expected her either - and they stayed up late at the office that hot summer.
Once he remarked to her that “only with her arrivals all sorts of miracles begin with computers” and apparently he taught her badly to treat them in due time ... If she could open up for him then ... She told him the truth only at the end of the summer 10 minutes before the train leaves, by phone ...
Then She did not know that for several months he had been seeking transfer to the city where she lives - she lives without him. She is
she didn’t know much ... And today she is next to him (in his apartment smells of paint) is lying on the sofa, which they bought together ... he asked for help in choosing furniture, and in the store she asked what sofa she liked ...
* * *
She decided for herself that this will be the first and the last time when she appears in his home - not yet filled with another life, to encroach on which she has no right, while the dwelling with a small island of their ghostly happiness in the form of a sofa is empty ...
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He was visibly worried, apparently he felt that this evening she decided to sacrifice her principles for herself, he knew by her eyes how tired she was of dealing with the feelings that gripped her. His recent attempts to get close were met by her "in hostility", but it was not from "reluctance", but rather from surprise ... Too many events happened in a short period ... his move to her city, his recognition of wanting to have her . She was so accustomed to longing for him that she was confused when he got so close ... tonight was supposed to be a turning point in their relationship - she decided and was very nervous ...
They walked along a dark street in silence like conspirators. He held her hand like a child, sometimes squeezing her cold fingers with excitement, and from these shakes his heart stopped breathing and his legs weakened.
Contrary to all her expectations, he was surprisingly inexperienced lover ...
The beginning was stormy, the front door was barely closed behind them ... as if fearing that some of them would change their mind ... clothes flew in different directions, lining the way to the sofa ...
Kisses did not caress - they burned, the movements were sharp and a little rough, but it did not offend, it was just somehow noted in my head that "not everything was as it was in dreams" ... he entered it sharply - it was unexpected, but in an impulse, she didn’t even immediately realize that he was too big for her and therefore she was experiencing some pain, but it was a pleasant pain, no matter how strange it sounded ... As one would expect, everything ended very quickly - the excitement of both was too great ... they lay silently closely hugging each other, but oh N was far away - did she feel that ... what was tormenting him at that moment? I didn’t even want to think about it ... It turned out that everything was very simple - he was embarrassed by the fact that he also did not think so ... and when she heard about it, she laughed out loud and, in his surprised look, told him the same thing ...
- Do you want to drink? - he asked. - however, it is necessary from the neck, I have no dishes at all ...
“She doesn't need her,” she said. - you will drink from me.
- Like this? - he raised himself on his elbow and began to observe her actions with curiosity.
Having filled her mouth with mineral water, she pressed her mouth tightly to his lips and then he understood what she wanted - she opened her lips and began to gently drink the given fluid, and along with the water, her desire. It was so new for him that it brought him faster than her mouth had time to empty.Without too much haste, his hands began to caress her body, lingering on those places where she was particularly pleased, she herself suggested and directed his caresses to where they were waited ... But due to the fact that some sections he stubbornly bypassed she concluded that he is either not familiar with this or he does not turn him on ... and she decided to be bold.
“You know,” she said, “even though this is our first night with you, but I would like to know what you dreamed of doing with a woman in bed ...”
“But I am afraid that something might shock or offend you, as happened with my wife.”
- Do not worry about this, you do not know what I expect from this night ...
- I would like to turn on the light and see you closer There ... Can I?
While he was getting up to turn on the light, she lay down so that it would be convenient for him to carry out his plans, and since the light from the bare bulb blinded his eyes she covered them with her hand. She really wanted to see his reaction, but she did not dare, because she was afraid to embarrass him ... and lay with her eyes closed, holding her breath and trying to catch at least something by ear what was happening to her researcher.
- Can I kiss? - She heard after a while hoarse voice with emotion.
- You can - she answered surprisingly as hoarsely. My God, flashed through my head, as a schoolgirl worried, well, it’s necessary ...
Breathing was hot and intermittent, and the touch of the lips with light and timid, but the experienced feelings were aggravated by the realization that she was the first woman he kissed so, and were so strong that she groaned out her whole body to meet his caress - he grew bolder. Having brought himself and her to a complete frenzy, he somehow with an elusive gesture turned her on his stomach, lifted her hips and entered her from behind, carefully, probably, this time he felt resistance inside and realized that complete immersion was impossible and gave her the opportunity to regulate the depth of penetration. Feeling his hot hands on her hips, hearing his restrained moans, she completely lost her sense of the reality of what was happening, for some reason, only one thing turned in her head: “I melt snow in his hot hands ...”
Tired of all their experiences, they lay on a blue sofa as on a piece of the seventh sky, which they created for themselves ... he kissed her fingers, coming up with sweet words as they walked - both of them wanted this feeling of happiness and peace to end. .
He fell asleep first, she listened to how his heartbeat calms down and her breathing evens out, thought about what will change in her life now, because nothing just happens and does not pass without a trace ... It’s time, it’s time to get out of the cocoon. ..